bonsoir..
nothing to do now while waiting my assignmentmate came back from their "busy" job..
lol..
been so busy recently ei..
tired yet lonely..
hate those feelings..
losing my souls, my heart, my friends...
i looking at the mirror..
will i stilll be the same as last time e me??
i used to be a straigh thinking and forward person..but now, every step i make also have to gone through so many steps..
hahaz..
is this called "xin ji"??
i so hate this kind of stupid feel ei..
how am i going to be happy as last time??
live in a happy world, a aworld at least with true friend(not those fake friend that acting good in front of you)..
back in form 6,although all those times is harder, but at least i got my girlfriend and best buddy support me always in any circumstances..
true friend really giving their very true heart to help you when you have problems..
either chat to you from heart to heart, whenever you are feeling bad..
growing up is terrible, you are getting lessly to find such friends..
i still clearly remember that my ambition once was interior designer..
but now, i am on the path of civil engineer pula..
am i really going on the right path??
i don't ask for a extreme salary actually..
but just a job i like to do yet the salary is enough to support me and my family..
fullfilling my own dream to help people to have their own "real" home..
because nowadays everyone has their own home, but do they really eager to go back their home after their tired days??
at least i been trhough days like this...
i understand this situation..
i just want to be a interior designer that helps people to have a "home" feeling when they are back at their own home..
everyone keep mentioning about civil will always get a high rise pay..
that doesn't been a really big concern for me..
i clearly know what type person i am..
i am nt those big business e people...
i can do my part oweys 100% even 120% but nt leading by my ownself..
arrgh..
i wan back ori e me..
God, i pray to you, bring me back to your own very true path..Amen.